I didn't go beyond my means but I did one hell of an upgrade if you ask me! I mean a girl only gets to splurge once in a while so why not treat myself right? Well this Xmas is going to be interesting because I got everybody in mind already together so I am very excited! Also I am very happy to say that I am registering for classes next semester so I'm hyped on getting back to the studying scene.
I know one thing for sure I have a lot of things ahead and a strong support system behind me! I also have a lot coming ahead and to look forward too personal wise and professionally as well but I don't want to spill the beans until everything falls into place. I feel so happy it's like the world at my fingertips for now. My mother's ways are showing more through me and that was bound to happen but she would be proud of her daughter no matter how silly I am at times. With new responsibility comes more challenges but nothing I can't handle so I'm pretty much prepared for anything that will come my way. Who wouldn't be I mean a new career direction with different goals planned and possibly new digs, the possibilities are endless if you ask me.
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
How Can I Thank Him?
Well how can I ever thank Jehovah for everything he has done? Can I ever thank him enough?
How can I thank him for everything he has done for me thus far and for the future? He brought me through so much with my personal struggles and I finally see and appreciate the blessings that's before me. It's like when you're about to lose hope and seems like everything is not going right that is when he steps him and set things right! You know how of a difference simple manners make though? I know a man who gave his life and had a hand with Jehovah in creating life and made sure you had your chance at salvation. He suffered SO MUCH and gave up his perfect life. That's not to make anybody feel guilty or sad but did you know after all that there are times he NEVER got a simple THANK YOU? Well how do thank the person who gave up his life and The Father for such gifts?
Have you ever considered your life as a precious gift though it's temporary? Have you once wondered how can you ever thank an awesome wonder as he?
God knows there is never enough ways to thank him for everything he has done for me. Jehovah is the source of life so why not thank him for the opportunity to call him my friend. At times when I don't deserve it he still blesses me beyond compare. How can you say thank you for his mercy and peace? Thanking The Father who can defeat all things and even make sure that his tests are not more than you can bare. How to do that?
Well constant prayer is the first step because nobody likes being ignored so why not have that one on one talk with the one person that knows you BEST. Sometimes are problems can go round in circles and we don't know which way to go; the right way is up. There are 3 paths Life's way Your Way and HIS Way and what's so great about Jehovah is that he never forces anything from us. So it's all up to ourselves what direction we go but here's the funny thing about that.
Say you take Life's way what life say is good and you're stuck at a stumbling block? We say to ourselves well my mind told me to do it my way so we try that way and call ourselves trying to escape or hide from him. How can you hide from someone who's everywhere and knows where you are and what you're doing at ALL TIMES? LOL!
So now you're left with one path one way one truth and you finally see THE LIGHT! So how can you thank him, prayer of thanksgiving? Worship and faithful service? That's a question I will leave you the readers to walk away with!
For my friends that gave me an encouraging word at times when I thought my faith was all lost, I thank you as well but I had to take time out to give thanks to the one whose the source of all things!
How can I thank him for everything he has done for me thus far and for the future? He brought me through so much with my personal struggles and I finally see and appreciate the blessings that's before me. It's like when you're about to lose hope and seems like everything is not going right that is when he steps him and set things right! You know how of a difference simple manners make though? I know a man who gave his life and had a hand with Jehovah in creating life and made sure you had your chance at salvation. He suffered SO MUCH and gave up his perfect life. That's not to make anybody feel guilty or sad but did you know after all that there are times he NEVER got a simple THANK YOU? Well how do thank the person who gave up his life and The Father for such gifts?
Have you ever considered your life as a precious gift though it's temporary? Have you once wondered how can you ever thank an awesome wonder as he?
God knows there is never enough ways to thank him for everything he has done for me. Jehovah is the source of life so why not thank him for the opportunity to call him my friend. At times when I don't deserve it he still blesses me beyond compare. How can you say thank you for his mercy and peace? Thanking The Father who can defeat all things and even make sure that his tests are not more than you can bare. How to do that?
Well constant prayer is the first step because nobody likes being ignored so why not have that one on one talk with the one person that knows you BEST. Sometimes are problems can go round in circles and we don't know which way to go; the right way is up. There are 3 paths Life's way Your Way and HIS Way and what's so great about Jehovah is that he never forces anything from us. So it's all up to ourselves what direction we go but here's the funny thing about that.
Say you take Life's way what life say is good and you're stuck at a stumbling block? We say to ourselves well my mind told me to do it my way so we try that way and call ourselves trying to escape or hide from him. How can you hide from someone who's everywhere and knows where you are and what you're doing at ALL TIMES? LOL!
So now you're left with one path one way one truth and you finally see THE LIGHT! So how can you thank him, prayer of thanksgiving? Worship and faithful service? That's a question I will leave you the readers to walk away with!
For my friends that gave me an encouraging word at times when I thought my faith was all lost, I thank you as well but I had to take time out to give thanks to the one whose the source of all things!
Saturday, September 29, 2007
Conflicting Emotions!
You know I been through a lot lately but one thing is for sure is that I'm going through a lot of conflicting emotions right now. I mean it's bad enough I was about to give up on my faith, but when it came to the point I was starting to doubt the Father's existence it was time to start seeking his face. People don't know but sometimes it takes something tragic to make you wake up and appreciate the blessings before you.
If it's one thing I have learned is that I must keep my eyes on him and hold up that powerful shield of faith. I have to because I was too close to throwing in the towel and my God is too powerful to watch his faithful slip into one of the most obvious traps that is set against me. I say that reaching out to Jehovah is the best therapy I know! There is nobody like him and he knows me so much better than I know myself and there is no way I can turn my back on my God I just can't do it!
The Lord is my light and my salvation in whom shall I fear
I live by that scripture now and it will keep me going from this day forward. I pray that I can contain and resolve the conflicting emotions that were taking over me because it's a struggle to fight it on my own. God knows that I maybe strong but without him I am as weak as a newborn just coming in the world. I want readers to know that being stubborn and going into hiding only last for so long and there comes a time you just have to give up and give in to Christ. Having that one on one relationship was so precious to me but for me to walk away I can't imagine how much I disappointed Jehovah. But I want to come back home seeking full forgiveness.
With that and a brand new relationship I can't begin to explain how much peace I will finally have! A peace I haven't experienced in years. It's intricate to explain but I will try, it's that kind of peace where you can open up about anything.
So pray for me while I endure this battle!
If it's one thing I have learned is that I must keep my eyes on him and hold up that powerful shield of faith. I have to because I was too close to throwing in the towel and my God is too powerful to watch his faithful slip into one of the most obvious traps that is set against me. I say that reaching out to Jehovah is the best therapy I know! There is nobody like him and he knows me so much better than I know myself and there is no way I can turn my back on my God I just can't do it!
The Lord is my light and my salvation in whom shall I fear
I live by that scripture now and it will keep me going from this day forward. I pray that I can contain and resolve the conflicting emotions that were taking over me because it's a struggle to fight it on my own. God knows that I maybe strong but without him I am as weak as a newborn just coming in the world. I want readers to know that being stubborn and going into hiding only last for so long and there comes a time you just have to give up and give in to Christ. Having that one on one relationship was so precious to me but for me to walk away I can't imagine how much I disappointed Jehovah. But I want to come back home seeking full forgiveness.
With that and a brand new relationship I can't begin to explain how much peace I will finally have! A peace I haven't experienced in years. It's intricate to explain but I will try, it's that kind of peace where you can open up about anything.
So pray for me while I endure this battle!
Friday, September 14, 2007
What's Up People?
Been a while since I last came up in here but yes, it's time for a fabulous update! See it's been a while since my mother's death but things are going well. Since then I got a new PC and things are doing okay. I mean I have great people in my corner for me supporting me the best they know how.
Now, everybody who knows me knows I'm a OLD SCHOOL FANATIC and besides my love for the Jackson's I'm a HUGE DEBARGE FAN! I love them no matter what anybody says you know? They had their trials and tribulations just like anybody else but I have to give it to them that whole family is truly talented and it's a rare blessing to have an entire gifted family of soul singers. If you ask me their underrated and it's not fair!
That's how life is and when life toss it's hurdles you have to overcome them just like anybody else and what's great about having faith is that it can help you overcome any and everything. I read an article about the family titled The Rise and Fall of the Debarge family and I got really irked with the title because of this main reason. The writer is acting as if the family won't comeback! I wonder if they ever heard Donnie McClurkin's song We Fall Down?
Anyway, I have a full weekend ahead which might include something steamy! But I have homework and a story to start jotting down so keep your eyes peeled!
Now, everybody who knows me knows I'm a OLD SCHOOL FANATIC and besides my love for the Jackson's I'm a HUGE DEBARGE FAN! I love them no matter what anybody says you know? They had their trials and tribulations just like anybody else but I have to give it to them that whole family is truly talented and it's a rare blessing to have an entire gifted family of soul singers. If you ask me their underrated and it's not fair!
That's how life is and when life toss it's hurdles you have to overcome them just like anybody else and what's great about having faith is that it can help you overcome any and everything. I read an article about the family titled The Rise and Fall of the Debarge family and I got really irked with the title because of this main reason. The writer is acting as if the family won't comeback! I wonder if they ever heard Donnie McClurkin's song We Fall Down?
Anyway, I have a full weekend ahead which might include something steamy! But I have homework and a story to start jotting down so keep your eyes peeled!
Thursday, August 30, 2007
Starting Over
On August 15, 2007 I lost my beautiful mother! She died and for some reason I really don't felt I lost her. Yes I get selfish at times and wish to have her back now more than ever, but then again I'm happy she's no longer suffering and having to deal with this wicked disgusting world.
Many people are still going on telling me I should grieve but the process ended for me at the funeral to be honest. I know that I did all I could do and that I loved her more than anything. With all the rumors going on afterwards, it upsets me that people don't have enough respect for my mother at least to leave me alone. There are the bitter, the envious, and just hateful alike, I'll tell you what though; those monkey fools won't stop or run the show!
I am blessed to have my amazing godparents because without them only God knows where would I be emotionally, physically, and mentally. I resumed classes yesterday and I must say I really have more strength than what I thought I had. It took a lot to deal with the crap I'm dealing with afterwards and it took a lot to even attend seeing her in that casket. Just seeing my mother my best friend not being able to tell me she love me anymore just broke my heart. Then I just felt satisfied knowing she is no longer in pain or sick.
My godparents have been very amazing to me and I just can't thank God enough for that blessing. My mother made the perfect choice when she picked my godparents Patricia and Lawrence Jenrette. They are the best anybody could ask for! Then my god sisters what more can I ask for? They are the best! One gave me my god daugther and she is my heart! I love being a godparent more than anything.
I just don't like the bitterness going around now with the nasty lies and comments but I say to those going around with a negative comment and idiotic ideas, God Bless You because your foolishness and stupidity added with your ignorance makes me stronger and improves my patience.
Many people are still going on telling me I should grieve but the process ended for me at the funeral to be honest. I know that I did all I could do and that I loved her more than anything. With all the rumors going on afterwards, it upsets me that people don't have enough respect for my mother at least to leave me alone. There are the bitter, the envious, and just hateful alike, I'll tell you what though; those monkey fools won't stop or run the show!
I am blessed to have my amazing godparents because without them only God knows where would I be emotionally, physically, and mentally. I resumed classes yesterday and I must say I really have more strength than what I thought I had. It took a lot to deal with the crap I'm dealing with afterwards and it took a lot to even attend seeing her in that casket. Just seeing my mother my best friend not being able to tell me she love me anymore just broke my heart. Then I just felt satisfied knowing she is no longer in pain or sick.
My godparents have been very amazing to me and I just can't thank God enough for that blessing. My mother made the perfect choice when she picked my godparents Patricia and Lawrence Jenrette. They are the best anybody could ask for! Then my god sisters what more can I ask for? They are the best! One gave me my god daugther and she is my heart! I love being a godparent more than anything.
I just don't like the bitterness going around now with the nasty lies and comments but I say to those going around with a negative comment and idiotic ideas, God Bless You because your foolishness and stupidity added with your ignorance makes me stronger and improves my patience.
Sunday, August 5, 2007
CRUNCH TIME!
You know I had one heck of a weekend but it's crunch time. I have a long huge project to type and I'm not really worried about it but the thing is having to print all those pages will drive anybody nuts if you ask me!
Hey no biggie I have classes tomorrow and I can say I'm a bit okay because we have a buffer test to take and then I have so much to study but I can't wait because for some reason I really love to do tests. Studying is my thing but the thing that gets on my nerves is having to take the test and I get so damn nervous it just drives me nuts.
My thing is waiting on the new Rush Hour 3 film starring one of my favorite actors Chris Tucker. His comedic films are great but what's outstanding about Chris is that unlike some comedic actors his talent is not limited to comedy. His skills in Dead Presidents just blew me away!
As far as everything else has been going, well I've been working on a couple of surprises and I must say that I am happy that I will be the one that will bring a lot of smiles to people who least expect it. That includes my goddaughters. They don't know what's gong to hit them when they get a surprise visit with gifts along with the ride.
My eyes were filled with glee when I seen a Tinkerbell themed journal. I know it seems quite childish but if you only knew how much I love the little fairy nobody would suspect that I'm actually 25 years old now. Though I can be very playful I'm not to be messed with when it's time to be serious. I am very fierce when I have to be!
Can't believe I finished reading Aphrodite's book so quickly but I must say each account that she penned were really some revelations that I thought were an eye opener among other things. I just hope that many would go beyond the unnecessary hype of others trying to down the book and pick it up and read it! It's something they will actually learn about besides reading idiotic gossip blogs that are relentless in revealing scandal and controversies that are mostly malicious lies. I guess it's human nature to tear down someone they are jealous of these days.
Well I'm off for now but before I log off I just want readers out there to remember, there's nothing wrong with NOT following the crowd because being different is what makes us ALL special. Remember to stay focused on your goals because nothing or anybody can stop you from achieving them but yourself! Also, stay true to yourself and the rest will naturally follow!
Form an entity of creativity to another! God Bless You ALL!
Hey no biggie I have classes tomorrow and I can say I'm a bit okay because we have a buffer test to take and then I have so much to study but I can't wait because for some reason I really love to do tests. Studying is my thing but the thing that gets on my nerves is having to take the test and I get so damn nervous it just drives me nuts.
My thing is waiting on the new Rush Hour 3 film starring one of my favorite actors Chris Tucker. His comedic films are great but what's outstanding about Chris is that unlike some comedic actors his talent is not limited to comedy. His skills in Dead Presidents just blew me away!
As far as everything else has been going, well I've been working on a couple of surprises and I must say that I am happy that I will be the one that will bring a lot of smiles to people who least expect it. That includes my goddaughters. They don't know what's gong to hit them when they get a surprise visit with gifts along with the ride.
My eyes were filled with glee when I seen a Tinkerbell themed journal. I know it seems quite childish but if you only knew how much I love the little fairy nobody would suspect that I'm actually 25 years old now. Though I can be very playful I'm not to be messed with when it's time to be serious. I am very fierce when I have to be!
Can't believe I finished reading Aphrodite's book so quickly but I must say each account that she penned were really some revelations that I thought were an eye opener among other things. I just hope that many would go beyond the unnecessary hype of others trying to down the book and pick it up and read it! It's something they will actually learn about besides reading idiotic gossip blogs that are relentless in revealing scandal and controversies that are mostly malicious lies. I guess it's human nature to tear down someone they are jealous of these days.
Well I'm off for now but before I log off I just want readers out there to remember, there's nothing wrong with NOT following the crowd because being different is what makes us ALL special. Remember to stay focused on your goals because nothing or anybody can stop you from achieving them but yourself! Also, stay true to yourself and the rest will naturally follow!
Form an entity of creativity to another! God Bless You ALL!
Wednesday, August 1, 2007
I'm BACK!
Hey,
I'm back again after a little hiatus but I'm here and I will be updating my other blog to keep the knowledge rolling! It's been a crazy week last week and this week has been kind of the straighten things out week. I had issues beyond belief going on but this week was putting things together week. The family is great now but the only thing driving me nuts is school.
You know Med school is awesome and if I had a choice I would never leave the school. Why I say that is because it's my only escape from a lot of things that irk my nerves. I purchased Aphrodite's Book and I have the three day wait to look forward to and you know what? That's not bad! I had a lesson in patience last week so what's three days right?
My HUGE prescription packet for class is going to due soon and I want to DIE because I procrastinated so long that it's not funny. Now I have to get the ball rolling. I got stared last week and it's due next Thursday so you know I'm about to loose my mind but I want to pass so I won't get stuck up again so lets get it started. I know I'm not the only one who waits until the last minute to do projects.
I'm back again after a little hiatus but I'm here and I will be updating my other blog to keep the knowledge rolling! It's been a crazy week last week and this week has been kind of the straighten things out week. I had issues beyond belief going on but this week was putting things together week. The family is great now but the only thing driving me nuts is school.
You know Med school is awesome and if I had a choice I would never leave the school. Why I say that is because it's my only escape from a lot of things that irk my nerves. I purchased Aphrodite's Book and I have the three day wait to look forward to and you know what? That's not bad! I had a lesson in patience last week so what's three days right?
My HUGE prescription packet for class is going to due soon and I want to DIE because I procrastinated so long that it's not funny. Now I have to get the ball rolling. I got stared last week and it's due next Thursday so you know I'm about to loose my mind but I want to pass so I won't get stuck up again so lets get it started. I know I'm not the only one who waits until the last minute to do projects.
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