That's right I had a little talk with Jesus! I wrote and open letter and I'm soon to have an open prayer with the Father Jehovah because I have fallen short drastically. I won't disclose much other than I took a selfish course and I want to uphold and renew my relationship with him. Jehovah is my everything and I was making good progress in our relationship but I just went my own way like the son in Jesus parable.
What's so great about Jehovah is though I don't deserve his loving kindness, I can count on his forgiveness if I humbly turn to him and seek his mercy. I accept responsibility for my actions but I only seek to please him and his loving mercy. I can't help but get nervous because it's horrible knowing you disappointed the Father but accepting the punishment or correction is part of the growing process.
I just hope that he hears my pleas and give me that second chance I need to show him I am ready to fully give myself and submit to his kingship. I just hope that I can show him what sets me apart from the others so I can continue in making my path right and spreading the good news that is to be spreaded across the nations. I must make my Father Proud! To shame the one that taunts him I must bring joy to him. That is my ultimate goal and desire! To make sure he is pleased and nothing more.
Monday, May 28, 2007
Sunday, May 27, 2007
Feeling Inspired!
Yes you heard it from me!
I was very inspired today so I began doing some more reading of the Scriptures and some writings as I always do when I get those creative vibes going. I don't know it just hits me out of the blue at times and I just have to write down the words that best describe my feelings at the time and then when the time is write it flows together so rich and smoothly. It's like I can identify myself with many other writers and it's great!
I was thinking about my family and I have to say I come from a back round of musicians and artists and the talents knows no boundary but it's great to know that although we are not perfect there is always going to be that bond that's unbreakable. That is what makes me so proud and want to pass it on!
I was going over some work I have done and can't believe how much I matured as a writer and decided to jump into more subjects. I was the type that was once I'm comfortable with one subject I stick to it. Now, I tackle every angle every subject that it just keeps me buzzing. Everything from social issues, intimacy, to fantasy and mystery. Thanks to a wonderful person who taught me not to limit myself.
As far as school is concerned everything is going well, at times I didn't have confidence I made it through and I'm working hard even when I'm hardly working you can say. The only thing that's driving me nuts is staying committed to a subject! That's my only set back but other than that everything is going well.
I have to get blood work done Tuesday and I won't lie I'm nervous as any other person who hasn't had that done in some time. Well I guess that's how it is in life when you haven't kept a certain routine in a while. I've done some studying of Scriptures and can't wait to get back into my regular study habits again!
As far as the weekend is concerned it couldn't be long enough!!!! I want it longer though I have Monday off.
Well that's been the update with me so I hope that the future brings more blessings from Jehovah at his finest!
I was very inspired today so I began doing some more reading of the Scriptures and some writings as I always do when I get those creative vibes going. I don't know it just hits me out of the blue at times and I just have to write down the words that best describe my feelings at the time and then when the time is write it flows together so rich and smoothly. It's like I can identify myself with many other writers and it's great!
I was thinking about my family and I have to say I come from a back round of musicians and artists and the talents knows no boundary but it's great to know that although we are not perfect there is always going to be that bond that's unbreakable. That is what makes me so proud and want to pass it on!
I was going over some work I have done and can't believe how much I matured as a writer and decided to jump into more subjects. I was the type that was once I'm comfortable with one subject I stick to it. Now, I tackle every angle every subject that it just keeps me buzzing. Everything from social issues, intimacy, to fantasy and mystery. Thanks to a wonderful person who taught me not to limit myself.
As far as school is concerned everything is going well, at times I didn't have confidence I made it through and I'm working hard even when I'm hardly working you can say. The only thing that's driving me nuts is staying committed to a subject! That's my only set back but other than that everything is going well.
I have to get blood work done Tuesday and I won't lie I'm nervous as any other person who hasn't had that done in some time. Well I guess that's how it is in life when you haven't kept a certain routine in a while. I've done some studying of Scriptures and can't wait to get back into my regular study habits again!
As far as the weekend is concerned it couldn't be long enough!!!! I want it longer though I have Monday off.
Well that's been the update with me so I hope that the future brings more blessings from Jehovah at his finest!
Friday, May 18, 2007
It's Been A LONG Time.....
I shouldn't have left you! Without a dope blog to read BOO!
Hey it's me again and I'm back because I have to give you some updates! Remember I made 100% on my test but yeah I got some trouble I went down to the seventies on my Chapter Test so you know I was disappointed in myself because that's who is the blame. I didn't study much getting cocky thinking okay I got this I know what I'm doing I know how to do these equations. Boy did that C slap me back into reality.
Now I tell you I did more reading and studying and I got the equations now and I'm taking all my study time more seriously. All that being cocky and thinking I can handle it all on my own was just really stupid on my part and I'm honest enough to admit that. Now that I do more studying and looking more and more at the tests I think I will go for the Radiology license. No, I KNOW I will go for my license! I can try and see what to expect and hopefully I will pass because I really want this so it will take a lot of studying and effort on my part.
I know I will need some prayer but I hopefully will be ready and I just need his guidance and assistance. My improvement is giving me so much confidence I just can't help but to be proud of myself, for the first time I truly am proud of my accomplishments.
Hey it's me again and I'm back because I have to give you some updates! Remember I made 100% on my test but yeah I got some trouble I went down to the seventies on my Chapter Test so you know I was disappointed in myself because that's who is the blame. I didn't study much getting cocky thinking okay I got this I know what I'm doing I know how to do these equations. Boy did that C slap me back into reality.
Now I tell you I did more reading and studying and I got the equations now and I'm taking all my study time more seriously. All that being cocky and thinking I can handle it all on my own was just really stupid on my part and I'm honest enough to admit that. Now that I do more studying and looking more and more at the tests I think I will go for the Radiology license. No, I KNOW I will go for my license! I can try and see what to expect and hopefully I will pass because I really want this so it will take a lot of studying and effort on my part.
I know I will need some prayer but I hopefully will be ready and I just need his guidance and assistance. My improvement is giving me so much confidence I just can't help but to be proud of myself, for the first time I truly am proud of my accomplishments.
Monday, May 7, 2007
Update because YOU are so Great!
I had to miss a day from class and I am NOT pleased. The thing is with that class if you miss a day you're LOST! So then I got a super surprise when my fiancee showed up late night and the only thing I'm wondering is
1) Why did he come by?
2) Why is he being so nice?
3) What did he do?
Not saying he isn't always nice but that was just too suspect!
Then on to my grandmother who I miss a lot. She knows she made me laugh too much but I want to visit her at the nursing home so I will sooner than later. It reminded of the time she pulled out a toy gun that looked real and was shooting out the window laughing when somebody falls to the ground or just takes off running. You can see where my prankster side comes from naturally. When she tells her story about getting from Savannah to Miami it's really thrilling and though she tells it a lot it's still fresh.
Then I have a dreaded doctor's appointment as if I am excited about that! AS IF!!!
To end it on a hysterical note I can't believe that I will soon be 25! Seems like just yesterday I was excited about being 20 alone and now I'm going to 25. I ask myself if I could go back and relive my childhood would I? That answer is a definite YES!! I miss the 80's no joke and the early 90's. But it beats being a child in this day and age because the mystery and innocence that comes with it is just out the window these days and that seriously irks me!
Well to end this blog on a positive note I will say that I am very pleased with all the blessings Jehovah has bestowed upon me and may those gift be passed on to others as time goes by.
1) Why did he come by?
2) Why is he being so nice?
3) What did he do?
Not saying he isn't always nice but that was just too suspect!
Then on to my grandmother who I miss a lot. She knows she made me laugh too much but I want to visit her at the nursing home so I will sooner than later. It reminded of the time she pulled out a toy gun that looked real and was shooting out the window laughing when somebody falls to the ground or just takes off running. You can see where my prankster side comes from naturally. When she tells her story about getting from Savannah to Miami it's really thrilling and though she tells it a lot it's still fresh.
Then I have a dreaded doctor's appointment as if I am excited about that! AS IF!!!
To end it on a hysterical note I can't believe that I will soon be 25! Seems like just yesterday I was excited about being 20 alone and now I'm going to 25. I ask myself if I could go back and relive my childhood would I? That answer is a definite YES!! I miss the 80's no joke and the early 90's. But it beats being a child in this day and age because the mystery and innocence that comes with it is just out the window these days and that seriously irks me!
Well to end this blog on a positive note I will say that I am very pleased with all the blessings Jehovah has bestowed upon me and may those gift be passed on to others as time goes by.
Tuesday, May 1, 2007
The First Day Back To Class!!!
Great!!!
Yeah it's a lot of work this semester but you know it's relatively easy not a breeze but with effort it can be done! I just have to remember to bring my calculator because there is some physics involved but I had Physics it about remembering formulas and theories.
So much homework but not due all at once and talk about a sigh of relief. But you know what? I can't begin to tell how time consuming this is going to be because there is a project due, then there is some work to remember and then OMG I almost forgot the formulas LOL!!!
I feel up to the challenge and ready for the long fight because you know what? I feel this is going to be a long tiring fight. But if I could complete the last class with a perfect average I know I can do it with this class though it's going to be tough! I am really excited and I almost forgot something BIG!
Though tomorrow is my day off I have a doctor's appointment!
AAAAAAAAHHHH!!!!
Oh well That's life!
I better get going I got some studying to do and some practice so catch ya later!
May Jehovah have mercy on me!
Yeah it's a lot of work this semester but you know it's relatively easy not a breeze but with effort it can be done! I just have to remember to bring my calculator because there is some physics involved but I had Physics it about remembering formulas and theories.
So much homework but not due all at once and talk about a sigh of relief. But you know what? I can't begin to tell how time consuming this is going to be because there is a project due, then there is some work to remember and then OMG I almost forgot the formulas LOL!!!
I feel up to the challenge and ready for the long fight because you know what? I feel this is going to be a long tiring fight. But if I could complete the last class with a perfect average I know I can do it with this class though it's going to be tough! I am really excited and I almost forgot something BIG!
Though tomorrow is my day off I have a doctor's appointment!
AAAAAAAAHHHH!!!!
Oh well That's life!
I better get going I got some studying to do and some practice so catch ya later!
May Jehovah have mercy on me!
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