On August 15, 2007 I lost my beautiful mother! She died and for some reason I really don't felt I lost her. Yes I get selfish at times and wish to have her back now more than ever, but then again I'm happy she's no longer suffering and having to deal with this wicked disgusting world.
Many people are still going on telling me I should grieve but the process ended for me at the funeral to be honest. I know that I did all I could do and that I loved her more than anything. With all the rumors going on afterwards, it upsets me that people don't have enough respect for my mother at least to leave me alone. There are the bitter, the envious, and just hateful alike, I'll tell you what though; those monkey fools won't stop or run the show!
I am blessed to have my amazing godparents because without them only God knows where would I be emotionally, physically, and mentally. I resumed classes yesterday and I must say I really have more strength than what I thought I had. It took a lot to deal with the crap I'm dealing with afterwards and it took a lot to even attend seeing her in that casket. Just seeing my mother my best friend not being able to tell me she love me anymore just broke my heart. Then I just felt satisfied knowing she is no longer in pain or sick.
My godparents have been very amazing to me and I just can't thank God enough for that blessing. My mother made the perfect choice when she picked my godparents Patricia and Lawrence Jenrette. They are the best anybody could ask for! Then my god sisters what more can I ask for? They are the best! One gave me my god daugther and she is my heart! I love being a godparent more than anything.
I just don't like the bitterness going around now with the nasty lies and comments but I say to those going around with a negative comment and idiotic ideas, God Bless You because your foolishness and stupidity added with your ignorance makes me stronger and improves my patience.
